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I don't know when I'll be able to move past knowing that many thousands of people carry on life as if they believe "a thing" (could be any number of things ... let my readers fill in the blank) - when in reality their motives are entirely cynical and selfish.

I finished Leviathan Wakes today. Absolutely flew through it. I never noticed or cared the leaps of logic that Miller makes along the way that don't add up. Just a wild ride of a book.

I'm sure a part of the reason I dug into Station Eleven so hard was because it took place in Chicago. I had a long held dream, even through high school, to live in Chicago. We took annual trips there growing up. Also Mackenzie Davis was in one of my all time favorite shows, Halt & Catch Fire. Which I might be ready for a rewatch of.

I've been preoccupied with a section of twitter that is focused on gender, specifically issues of masculinity, and gender roles. I can't stop looking at it and I don't know why. I want to say that the men inhabiting these spaces are attention seeking and wrong in what they're doing, and that the way they're proclaiming some partial truths about Jesus and Christianity are harming the church.

But I don't know how to articulate this. My brain can't coalesce around a central idea to pick at. I need to find a way to slow it down and pick it apart to tease something out. It all seems to go along with a right wing political attitude that brings with it all of the weirdness you'd expect. And it's also very agrarian and rural and backward looking. It feels like a retreat to more a more black and white era.

Walking Sherman. I saw two houses next to each other both running their AC. Come on people.

Of course the tailor for Tarrey Town has to be from the lady village. What Gordon could possibly mend clothes, with those giant hands.

I want you to be amazed by me - but there's nothing amazing to see or hear or feel. It's a cluttered kitchen counter of a man.

Grocery store feels apocalyptic this morning. People remember the great blackout and freeze of 2021.